When Off Our Nuts is Admirable

Displays of emotion have become our ticket to look down on a person. If someone is angry in public, then they are deranged, loony; they are to be avoided.

And you know, in most cases, when I see someone burst into a tantrum in a public forum, or even a private one, I cringe. My eyes are downcast. I don't want to talk to them, for fear that they actually are unbalanced.

For that reason, I hold a lot back. There is a lot of negative that can be thought of someone with outbursts, whose forthright emotions are ever-apparent. There are a lot of things that bother me at any given time. I used to talk about them, but where it got me was often unpleasant. Control your emotions, control your emotions. Years later, I sort of wish I'd said nothing. Then again, the things I said really proved to me how over-sensitive and egomaniacal some people are; afraid to laugh at themselves. As opposed to myself --- I spend a shitload of time laughing at me. I think living itself is a tremendous giggle. How did this come to be!

Sometimes I read my own gobbledy-gook and I think "Say, she might just be kooky." But then I read pieces from some of the best authors in the world, and I realize I could never even begin to aspire to be as mad as they were. At any rate, I'm on my way.

If I were someone else, I'd worry about me, but I'd like me. After all, the only people who inspire me are ones with personalities, with character; character that doesn't wear a pair of sweatpants with the word "ANGEL" on the ass.